I just need a bit of a vent. It seems like since I've stopped drinking, I just want to cry all of the time - even if I don't have any reason to. It's like all of the emotions that I've numbed with booze are coming up all at once and they're all negative. I'm having trouble believing that I'll ever be happy and optomistic again.

As an aside, I'm currently in-patient in a psychiatric hospital being treated for depression and my thoughts of suicide and self harm. Never thought I'd wind up here. But earlier this week we had an incident on the unit where 3 of the patients came back from a pass drunk. It was pretty ugly, but it was a really good reminder for me on why I want to stay sober.

---splitimage