Hi guys,

I'll try to keep this short. I would like to explain all of the really dark stuff I've been through but lets just leave it at I had a really messed up childhood.

I developed depression as a result of some stuff right before I turned 10. My family has always been really abusive and even though I'm 18 I still don't have a license because my parents refuse to teach me to drive no matter how much I ask. I just finished school not long ago (thank God I don't have to go there anymore) and I have absolutely no friends. I'm just really tired.

I've got lots of health problems but at the end of the day the worst thing is probably my anxiety and depression. Over the years I have begged to see a doctor and get medicated but mom won't listen. She doesn't care. I don't know what to do!! I seriously need medication. I'm getting crazier and crazier and I just feel like I'm going to lose it. The depression is suffocating me. I don't want to wake up, I even go weeks without washing my hair because I just don't give a crap anymore...The anxiety is super bad too. I can't even look at people when I walk through the store.

I really don't know what to do...everything is just a serious nightmare. Any advice?

Thanks.