He said...

"I'll see you tomorrow @ 5:00. You left a message and said you didn't want to talk, and that's fine... so I'll see you tomorrow, Friday, @ 5:00"

WHAT THE %#@&#!?? Am I an idiot? Do we have to state the obvious???? I don't know what I was expecting, I don't know. I am so mad at him right now; it's going to be one hell of a session tomorrow. I wanted him to say something else. That he's still here. That of course we are still in therapy together. Those things aren't obvious to me. I swear to God, I want to throw things at him. Now I have to embarrass myself further in session tomorrow by telling him all the things I wish he had said. Nice. I hope I can really let go to tell him what an %#@&#! I think he is for that lame message. That's what I want to do.

Editing and calming down for one minute to tell you all thank you for your support. Don't know how I would get through without all of your posts.

And Sunny-- It probably would have been worse for me if he didn't call back-- but you know what? I wish I never called in the first place. I know that sometimes he provokes me to get mad, but this time I'm really, really %#@&#! mad. And I don't know that this was provocation-- maybe it's just the way he is. I know that in the end, I will learn something from this. That although it didn't help to connect me, something will come of it....BUT RIGHT NOW I JUST REALLY, REALLY %#@&#! HATE HIM.