I'm sorry. Sometimes its hard to feel safe when you can't express yourself. Are there any outlets that you give yourself on a daily basis? Maybe it's as simple as letting yourself meditate at a certain time everyday- looking at pics on your phone of your family- sometimes my mind will slow down if I let myself do one game of Words with Friends on my phone. For me- I always feel better at work when I thank others to for their help. That helps a lot.