I have been crying cause I think I am going to lose my job. The last 7 days I have worked double shifts (16-17 hours) most days cause one of my colleagues left without any notice. Since then I have been making stupid mistakes and have become real stressed and tired. Not only I have been working double shifts but I also have an extra job which my colleague used to do. So today, I made a big mistake and it cost the agency a little money which I offered to take out of my pay. Well my manager won't reply to me and I am sure the mistakes I made along with the stupid questions I keep asking her, I am sure she wants rid of me. I am not being paranoid, I am sure she wants me out but can't because we are already 1 person down,

And to top it all off, I am having problems with my identity (yes I know BPD), I mean even more than usual. I question everything I think and say..and it is screwing with me as a person. I feel as though life is 1 big illusion and nothing is what it seems in my screwed up head. Hopefully I am wrong about my boss wanting to sack me but I don't think so.