Your English is great! You should tell her pieces at a time. Do you think some of it is transference? My feelings got really intense with my T. I have told her a lot but not everything which has helped. I think they expect some of the attachment/love especially if your childhood wasn't great. I would just have a goal everytime to tell her a little. I told mine at first that I didn't WANT to want to come to therapy. Then I told her I don't like feeling close to her. Then that I don't like that she matters to me. And most recently that I wish I had never let her in because now I care about her. This is over 4 months.