feelings like this and pictures in my head happens quite often lately, but i never tired to hurt or kill myself, when I have this i won't even touch knife, scissors, keep away from balcony.. today i had very stressful day, been to another doc, had panic attack while waiting, I feel sick like I have flu or cold, but he said I'm ok, but looked on my old blood test results and said that seems like I have underactive thyroid *which my gp totally ignored*.. at home i checked thyroid symptoms and it really scared me.. then had another stress and now suddenly I got heavy dd, feel like I would be 'out of my body' and like something is pushing me to jump from balcony again :/ so many triggers all the time eh :c
'the most important person in therapy is you' actually I never felt like that, the last t I've been to seemed bored of what I said and she kicked me everytime out of her office when one hour has passed, even when I asked her if I could stay just for one min longer, just to pull myself together.. but she didn't care that I'm crying and are in pieces, said no and I had to go cry on the street... this made me feel like I don't count at all...