Thank you, that is absolutely what I meant. I am in no position to judge anyone else. I had a breakdown over a decade ago. I never thought I would act on a suicidal thought, had never even had a gesture, had never self-harmed. My breakdown and the story surrounding it is way too long to explain, but I spent two years of my life actively suicidal and engaging in self-harm. I've been there. I understand all the whys, and I would never judge anyone else.