Thank you all for your responses. When I said I was raging mad, I was not referring to my husband, I was just speaking of in general. Earlier when I was driving on the expressway, I was so enveloped in a song, I swerved in the other lane, this on top of speeding. The sound of the wind shield wipers was piercing enough to make my ears bleed. But, that song, Willie Nelson's"Blue Eyes Crying in the Rain" was enough to take my mind away from this this world: love is like a dying ember, only memories remain. But, my kids were in the back seat and they had to listen to their zoned out mom blare Willie. At least it was far from the anger I felt towards them earlier...thank God I didn't show it. I love them so much. As for my husband, I love him very much also and we don't even fight...like I mentioned, with his wry comments and my being a little off, I am believing very bad things. I talked to my mom and she reassured me (alluded that my thoughts are in left field) that he is not cheating. Then, tonight, he went out to eat with his friend Travis. I am trying to hold down my anger...I am trying very hard to be reasonable...but, I just want to take an hour long shower and blast beautiful music into my ears. I want to blast passionate music that will take my mind so flipping high, I won't feel anything but pleasure and this rage will fall off my shoulders.