I find myself wishing for an accident so I can be out of commission but I won't do anything to myself. That's how I know I am sick again.

I long for a real person to just hold me and make me safe. The only relationships I have are digital and people who get paid to care like my Therapist. I have my children who love me, but I can't ask them to be my safe harbor. I am theirs.

My parents only care because if I get sick they don't get to live their lives.

I don't have a best friend who I can confide in because if I share too much she gets angry. She is fun to be around but only when I live up to her expectations.

I don't know what I am talking about.

I just want someone to hold on to me and take care of me.

Sorry for being such a... I don't know.

I am so sad. I hate the pain.

I want to sleep forever, or until it goes away.

What am I talking about. I am losing myself again.
Help.