You see the warning signs that you are not well at the moment.

We all have a basic need for love and acceptance. You have realistic thoughts when you think you want someone to be in a relationship with, it's a natural need. The first priority should be for you to get better first. You need coping skills to help you take care of yourself first before you can rely on a significant other to share the load with you and pick you up when you are down.

I'm sorry you're in pain right now.