I could have written your post word for word a couple of weeks ago. I slipped really fast into deep depression. I don't know what I could have done to prevent the slip, but I do know that I went to the local DBSA meeting today and got such a feeling of relief in the community of real life people who totally get it and are not judging. I'd highly recommend you try that and potentially call your doc. Once I slipped I needed to add meds to get me back up.