no I cannot. I wish, insurance will destroy me. I'm barely lucky to finally have my wisdom teeth removed with no charge, have physical therapy, see my therapist, and see my neurologist when I can.

If I do that, they'd probably say no easily like before and drown me in more debt.

I am only making 20,000 a year annually roughly maybe less more likely. I'm seriously stuck at my parents. I can't afford college in any way, I love music and extremely talented. I got signed, but hasn't fruit any money yet. Even though I got big hits, and signed a contract for checks. I haven't gotten one.

I feel cheated in life, I don't have a say. I can't afford to take care of myself and I now starve myself so my parents can enough for the week for work and that I have anorexia. I know it sounds stupid, to have worries about my looks when I need to eat when I don't have much to eat many times like most of my friends I'm with do, but I seriously do have it. I exercise a lot.

I want someone to accept and love me, but it's like my mom gives me the most attention because of my life, and my hell I'm still living through, but I know her health isn't doing so well. She says she'll be here and old and happy, but I highly doubt that.

By the time she would ever see me successful or have grandkids she'd be dead. I know when she dies. I don't want to live on this planet anymore, because after her being gone my dad will be impersonal all the time. He's cool and like a friend, but not a dad how it feels like. He's a great parent, but it doesn't feel like a parent. Not the least one bit.

I know, after my mom dies. I won't have anyone to cry to except myself and screaming hoping someone comes sees me from thin air to take it away, but I know it won't happen. 20 years of no one really any quality connection. I can't describe hell to you, but this is it in a developed nation.