a little over a year ago (I am 43 years old) my family dr suggested I may have add/adhd and perhaps I should see a therapist. I was like "what?!, I'm not hyper whatsoever!". I was ignorant on the subject and am still learning. The more I read on the subject I thought wow, this is me! I followed his suggestion, talked with a therapist a few months before I saw a psychiatrist. My therapist suggested I had ADD and the psychiatrist diagnosed me with add (non-hyper activity type).

Psychiatrist gave me prescription for adderall 20mg x2 daily (told me to start at 10). Wow! Did this medication change my life!! Suddenly I was focused and CALM, had motivation that I never had before, actually completed things I had started. For once I felt proud of myself.

Fast forward...six months after being diagnosed my psychiatrist took a medical leave, and will not be returning to work. So I was suddenly seeing a new dr. First time I saw him he didn't really talk to me much about my condition, just said he wanted to see me again in six months (I had to go pick up my prescription every month).
Six months later (today) I had my appointment with him. He said he wanted to ask questions about my history, ok fine...he asked what my grades were in grade school, I don't remember too much about grade school except daydreaming. Asked about middle and high school..below average grades. Seemed to focus A LOT on whether I caused disruptions in school. No, not really. I was more withdrawn, off in my own little world. School bored me. (As most everything in my life has).
Anyway...the point of this discussion is that he said "I don't know why last dr prescribed this for you, I don't think you have add, I want you off this medication".

So he cut my prescription for the month in half and wants to see me again in a month. He said it's very unusual for someone to start this medication at my age.
Well, yeah!! I've never been diagnosed. He just seemed to focus on the fact that I've never been in "trouble". He didn't take into consideration that I've never been able to follow through with relationships, schooling...said my life seemed to be "thriving!!". I'm a server, I'm 43, that's not exactly "thriving" by most standards. (Even though I have felt proud of myself at my job for the first time ever since taking this medication)
So this post is all over the place, I know. But my point is this, I feel like I have started and actually finished so many jobs/projects in the last year. I feel accomplished, focused and calm as I said before.
Im upset that this person who doesn't know boo about me has decided to take away the one thing that has made me feel like a "normal" person.

I'm feeling kind of sad right now...I just don't want to go back to my unproductive, unmotivated, lost in the clouds self.