Is this ever going to get better? I have written threads under numerous topics regarding my nightmare benzodiazepine withdrawal and this is a problem that persists. Now I'm 20 months off all psych meds and long term klonopin use. The pattern of insomnia is that I stay awake all day, no naps and awake until around 2 am. Then I fall asleep lots of times on the sofa and nap (not by choice or design) for about 20 minutes, then I get up and go to bed. Then I am stark raving madly awake! This can happen in bed too, I might sleep an hour and then wake up, be awake for 3-4 hours. I am super frustrated with this whole ordeal and wonder if I am ever going to be able to sleep normally.

I do know for sure that this almost 2 year ordeal of sleep deprivation has taken a toll on my body and I have no energy most of the time. It has caused some heart problems and who knows what could be traced to my lack of sleep and REM sleep. I feel like crying right now. I hate being awake in the middle of the night. It's just so exhausting! Right now I am fighting off some virus and need to be sleeping. Ambien used to help me sleep, but I hear it is related to benzos too closely for me to take. It was the only thing that helped me in the past, mostly the klonopin helped me sleep.

I've heard people take various herbs, valerian, magnesium, etc. None of that did a thing for me. Also someone told me that they see an osteopath type person, forgot what she was that prescribed all kinds of funky stuff. I know that I cannot afford that, no insurance would cover it. This same person suggested that I "find my own solution". So a medical doctor prescribed the medicine and then took me off cold turkey with no plan of how to help me get through protracted withdrawals and chronic insomnia. Hmm...can you say malpractice? Now with a different MD and she is totally clueless to how to help me, offers nothing. So how the hell am I supposed to find my own solution to a problem that even the genius doctors do not know how to treat?