I have had what I suppose you would call a nervous breakdown when I was 17. Home life was awful, mother had never liked me much, now she made it clear she hated me.

I went into a severe stress related depression.
I had no one, no one who cared about me.

I was in a dark tunnel. I couldn't read as the letters jumped up and down on the page like they had a life of their own, I couldn't hear properly, peoples voices were mumbled, incoherent.
I couldn't write, I couldn't speak, my tongue wouldn't work it just seemed to get in my way, any attempt to speak came out muddled. Tears ran down my face silently and continually I couldn't stop them.
I felt agitated, yet couldn't do anything.

I couldn't go to work in the factory mother had put me in (she'd refused to allow me further education) I hated those mindless jobs I was forced to do.
Mother showed no kindness at all. All she said to me was "I don't want you at home, grizzling around me"
No comfort at all.
I took myself to the doctors, that took a lot of courage as I suffered with social anxiety.
The doctor showed little sympathy either. I remember him saying something like "Huh, we all get miserable sometimes". I came out feeling like s##t, I'd hoped to at least get some understanding, support from him, but nope. I felt like the whole world was against me. Everything felt very distant. I walked home in a daze. I didn't want to go home but there was nowhere else to go.

He did give me some pills however, anti depressants I assume, I remember they were yellow. Can't remember what they where (this was over 40 years ago)
I vowed to take the pills, and, if they didn't work I was outta here. There was no way I could carry on feeling like that.

They did work, took 3 weeks before I started to feel a little better.

The only place I found it described as I felt it has been in the book by Sylvia Plath 'The Bell Jar'

But what type of depression makes you feel like that, has anyone else felt like that?