I am very sorry that you're feeling like this. I don't know what else to say except I think that it's a good thing to realize that you're projecting.

Perhaps it would help you a little if you were to try to see the good in people, rather than viewing them as an embodiment of the negative things that you THINK you see in them.

We are not our actions, whether they are accurate or simply projected onto us. Including you. You are NOT only this person you portray, here. You are more than that.