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Originally Posted by Red75
I'm in a class of fifteen trainees, many older than me.
I think that there is not one who doesn't have some past 'history'....abuse as a child, mental illness, alcohol issues etc. I've seen a lot of people on here say that they are/want to train as T's. many T's and counsellors are drawn to the profession because of their own experiences in therapy.
Is it the visibility of SI that makes it worse? Or does it suggest a more extreme issue, or less ability to cope?
Thanks, this is helpful..if depressing
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For me it's a visibility thing and as someone mentioned, a pretty loud visual disclosure. I kind of need to believe my T is super strong, and not experienced the things I have and especially still not affected by it. I need them to be stronger than me, I need them to be somewhat of a role model, a beacon of hope. And I hate that seeing self-harm scars on a T would make me doubt that because it is so judgemental and not even an accurate summation of strength. Cognitively, I know that actually, a T who had overcome the same crap I have could actually be an amazing T to have, but something at a feeling level just makes me not like the idea of it.
I think similarly though, if my T disclosed a horrific history in childhood, regardless if they overcame it or not, I wouldn't want to know that either so it's not the self-harm thing or scars per se, that bothers me. There's something about pretending that a T hasn't been touched by all the crap that life can throw at you, that just makes me feel safer. Even if it is an illusion.