I am 26 and because of being socially awkward I never really got the chance to mingle with girls I was attracted to. I spent my college years admiring them from afar while just hanging with my guy friends. Because of my depression I didn't do well enough to get into my field of choice(which I never gave much thought anyways) and now I still have no idea what career I want to pursue and I'm working at a job where they hire people out of high school. Basically because of where I am in life, no girl would be interested in me. But even if decided on a career and worked towards it, by the time I get into a position where I will not considered a loser, I will probably be into my 30s, which according to most people is past the age where you are no longer appealing to most women in their 20s, which makes up a huge chunk of the girls I find myself attracted to. I feel like I need to get a chance to mingle and play the field and I think it's unfair that I will be shamed for being into certain women because of my age. I can't help who I am attracted to and it's not like I'm really past that life stage anyways, so why? How is it fair? Why can't I be allowed to enjoy my life without being judged? It is probably because of getting picked on and treated like trash in school that I missed out on all those experiences, now I am going to continue getting treated like that because I dare to seek what I missed out on?

Is anyone able to tell me anything that would encourage me and make me feel like it's not too late? I am wanting someone to give me evidence of this, like from their experiences or someone else. And just fyi I'm not looking for a committed relationship at this point, I am looking to play the field; have dating experiences, explore what I like/dislike in a partner, have fun, no serious commitment. Basically like everyone already got to do.