Some days you have something to give and other days you don't even have enough energy or mental strength to get yourself successfully though a day. And oh yes the facade that we put on. Most of the time people know something is wrong but the facade stops you having to explain yourself to everyone. And then there is the angry side, where you don't have enough strength or will power to put up a facade. You still care, but the pain is just too overwhelming or the emotions too strong to be able to hold them back. It can come across as not giving a crap, but in reality it's a cry for help "I'm in so much pain that I cannot hold it in".

Not a dumb post at all. It shows the pain you are in, the anguish you feel, the internal turmoil of emotions. Hang in there, I hope your feeling better soon.

Hugs