I did go to sleep last night because I was going to purge my meds. Sleep is really ****** for me right now. I don't really feel like meds are worth it. I've become huge on the seroquel. I was telling my husband that I want to keep the seroquel next to the bed so whenever I woke up I could just take it to go back to sleep. He informed me that was drug abuse. I do have an agreement with my husband but I haven't done anything to enact my crisis plan. He's in a bad place too right now. He's suicidal right now. He has me lay down with him while he sleeps as his Teddy bear.