I wished I had an answer for you. I'm in the same boat, except my holes ain't been plugged yet. But I'm sick of my life. I've contemplated a couple of positions as of late, but I don't feel ready, however my balance sheet tells me differently.
I had rather die trying (stroke from stress) than being a bum. So, I'm about to conjure up the nerve to go try. It's just my focus is off, and I absolutely know they sense it. I would rather the company feel as though I'm doing them the favor rather than the other way around. I've been on both sides of the fence and the latter is not good, as it negates any bargaining rights.

Dad burn it. I'm just too screwed in the head.