My T and I were talking about an interesting concept today. We were going through patterns of my behavior when I've acted like a "child" and she was explaining how an "adult" would react. She a likened it to a child throwing a tantrum to get attention, which can cause others in my life to go down to "child" level or respond to me at a "parent" level. She said it's going to take some time to train me how to react in an "adult" manner more consistently when faced with adverse reactions.

When I go into "child" mode I act out especially when I feel like I'm not being heard. I can yell. Or sulk and walk away.

Sorry just absolutely ignore the above if it doesn't fit but what you said reminds me of myself.

I really agree with you that if you lacked the nurturing and weren't believed as a child - it is definitely a rationale behind your feelings. I think you need to tell your T in person almost exactly what you have written here. You will need some time to work through this issue presenting now but stemming from your past because if not your T, who's next?

Be well and know that things can change.