Hi. I have BP2 and ADD (no H but I often wish I did). I also have a serious problem with a lack of motivation to do anything...most importantly cleaning my home. I have a serious problem with clutter. And I can't seem to get to a point where I feel the need to keep it tidy. I don't live in filth. My home isn't dirty per se. It just comes down to clutter. And never wanting to pick up after myself or my daughter. It's embarrassing. It's mortifying when someone comes to the door that I am not expecting. That happened tonight. After they saw the horrible mess and clutter in my living room, I spent the rest of the night crying over it.

I just want to take pride in my home again. I used to have that feeling. I used to always keep a very nice, clean and tidy home. I want to care again. It makes me feel like a failure and beyond horrible that my daughter lives in mom's clutter and messiness. I just don't have that motivation anymore, and I am desperate for it back. I want to love my home again.

I've bought books. I've watched youtube videos. I've read blogs. All about how to clear the clutter and make daily chores to keep on top of everything. I can never get anywhere with it all. It is all so overwhelming.

Can anyone relate? Does anyone have any tips or insight into this specific problem?

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BP2
ADD
Meds = Seroquel, Lithium and Lamictal