Pink, I understand completely. My goals are different than yours are(me the hysterical, obsessive and dependent traits chick!). However, my T like yours, knows how to push our buttons and they are doing it...

Here is what I think: He knows what kind of response you needed and wanted. But he's not going to give it to you. Why?? I think what we are supposed to be learning from this awful process is that we somehow need to get comfy with the fact that most people in our lives will be there for us but perhaps not in the way we would like them to be. I'm guessing we are supposed to accept that most people do the best they can and their inaction should not derail us and make us unhappy or mad. In fact, some of them may not be doing it on purpose.

I guess they are trying to teach us to hold our own so to speak? I mean I've said a million times, I wish I wasn't so needy, I wish I didn't care what my dad thinks or mom. I wish I could go on and be happy anyway because I'm alive, the sun is shining and all the happiness and joy we want is within our reach. We just need to knock down a few walls first.

My T is making himself sort of unavailable the way I need him to be available. He won't respond to my calls or faxes etc. and I'm supposed to get comfy with this. I'm not 100% comfy at all but I think I'm seeing something in myself.

Your T (I think...) is telling you, "I'm here" but I'm not going to leave you a gushy message. I'm just going to let you know that I am your T and not leaving you. I think that is what he meant by 'see you tomorrow at 5:00'. I don't think it matters much what your message was to him, he planned on saying what he said...

My T, if he did call me (and he wouldn't) probably wouldn't even know when I was going to see him next...he would never say 'see you at 5:00 tomorrow' he'd say 'see you next time'...that is what he usually says.

Feel free to throw something at me and tell me I have this all wrong...but then tell me my T is going to CALL ME BACK!