Can't focus. Brain is everywhere. Not happy really, but not depressed like I was either. Still a little low and really tired, but not crying so that's good. I'm going to be turning 27 in 8 days. We aren't doing anything because bills are wonky. And we'll be lucky to make it through November. The good thing is December looks better financially. As long as things don't fall apart again. Looking at the past couple of months I wonder how I can deny that I fit this label? It seems that meds exasperate my symptoms right now trying to find what works. Cause I never cycled this frequently before. Trying too figure out why no one saw this before. My old Pdoc from like 2007-2010 I think was in denial. My last inpatient stay dx was mood disorder NOS and I was put on a mood stabilizer (geodon). But it's ok life goes on I've got a new team and so far they have been so much better than any I've seen before. I'm praying that I'm close to leveling out.
Addt: I'm now looking for a new job because I feel it's only a matter of time before I get written up again for something stupid (last time was because I didn't verify my answer with someone higher than my manager).