I always have a hard time getting past a break up. Even if it happened over two years ago...
I made the mistake of being friends with my ex, I thought if I break up with him he can't hurt me or vice versa, what an idiotic thought that was. The friendship was on his terms, he said "people like us need to stick together" (he also has depression, etc.) I know I shouldn't be friends with my exes because of the way I once felt for them, that doesn't mix well in a friendship for me. So of course, as it always happens, he lied to me for over a month, let everything snow ball until he finally told me he was seeing other people, not even in a romantic way, but he had been lying about it and canceling plans to go see them. Needless to say I feel very betrayed, mostly because he was the only person in my life I felt I could trust, he was supportive and helped me a lot... but then he really screwed up the situation.... and me.

I know, for me, I need to make friends and have better experiences, but I've been trying for over two years with no success. How is it possible to get over past betrayals if I can't make new experiences? I try to go out and do things, but just yesterday I was out walking with my only friend and I saw my ex-friend driving by with a girl in the car. Triggers are everywhere for me, I was having a panic attack in a store after I saw him. I just want to get past what I should be past already. It doesn't feel possible anymore...