I'm sorry. I've picked up SI habits again in the last few months. I think having talked with my T before has made it seem less "big". Which the downside is that I haven't mentioned it to him until yesterday when I sent an email and just sorta slipped it in. Now when I talk about it, I own it. "I did it. I wanted to do it. I know it wasn't effective and it was my choice."

He'll probably argue the point with me next week and whether or not it annoys him isn't really my concern. He can go talk to another T if he needs to work through issues.