Thanks everyone for your input. I had worked on expressing "weakness" as I see it to my T but I don't think I've quite achieved a satisfactory level before our untimely termination. It's not that I don't want to be honest with her but I've always trivialised these emotions about self-worth into something I bring up in a facetious remark. I do get that Ts often don't detest their clients for "not getting well" and so on, but surely they have those they truly like and those they are more apathetic about. I can't help but feel like I'm one of the latter and she sees me as "work" (which I am) so it hurts a little. OK I lied, a lot.

I think I will continue this process of attempting to be more open with my next T. It must be freeing to finally unburden these irrational thoughts.