they are the ones that get you to the big ones. If you don't realize how far you've gone even it's just a milliseconds worth of step, you might feel consistently defeated when you haven't actually been. Then you'll feel like giving up, coiling up in a ball, etc.

I've had issues with getting to work and leaving the house in general. Months ago I was calling out days at a time and would maybe make it to work 2 times a week, sometimes only one, sometimes not at all. I was crying constantly, felt abandoned by a friend, etc.

Lately I've been calling out maybe once a week. To a normal person that may seem like a ridiculous thing to call positive. But come on, it's an improvement. I haven't been crying as much. I still feel like there is nothing. Why am I here, what's the point, etc. But at least I'm moving to a greater degree.

Oh and somehow I still have a job. I'm grateful to have an understanding and tolerant team leader, and Union representation. Not to mention fmla.

Now I just need to quit skipping out on therapy appointments.

Keep on going fellow pc members.