Well as an update for those who have asked for it:

I am currently in a mental hospital. I decide to commit myself when I realized that I really wasn't safe. I have a history of self-harm issues and so yeah.

Well I had an increase in my anti-depressants and I tell you what, I feel great. This is the right kind of medication for me for now. For anxiety they put me on valium.

As it goes for the PTSD updates, I'm confronting my abusers about what had happened in the past. No longer are they my abusers but they used to be. They really have changed as people and have done a lot to turn around their life.

So I'm looking at going to a DBT therapy which should be helpful, and I'm going to find a new therapist as I can. Which means I need to talk to my other therapist and just explain why it's not really working and that I would like to move on to someone who's more qualified to deal with my issues.

So that's my update~!