Thanks. I would love to talk about it. I try to keep a book of all the things I do in a week, but I don't really have a lot of time to, plus I'm not very good with doing things I'm supposed to. I tell my mind "I have to do this today!" And I end up doing nothing all day. I know a lot of my issues come from my family but there's not much I can do to get away from them. I'm a very introverted person so trying to deal with people is not my strong suit.
A lot of times when I took this test I was really depressed but other times, even when I felt happy, I was surprise about how high my score was. I have a very hard time making myself face my life. Getting out of bed is a battle for me. So finding out what's troubling me in life and deal with it would really take effort I feel I just don't have. I don't even really know why these last few weeks have been hard. My family is just constantly busy, and I guess I'm mostly just angry I'm not busy with them. Does that make sense?? A lot of times I feel like they never understand me, or how things they say or do hurt me so much. And that really makes it hard...My mood can just randomly plummet to the point where I just sit there an think of all the horrible things I've done, and what I haven't done, and I'll just be so angry at my family. Angry at them for hurting me, for not noticing how much I'm hurting, and for being able to be happy.
I don't know if a lot of this makes sense but I hope it does.
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