My brother has Bipolar, and he is now 21. Before he would yell at me all the time, say so many mean things that I became suicidal. Now he's been getting electric shock treatment and acts a lot better, but refuses to work, and is only taking one class at a community college. So be it.

But while I try to focus on school, I get these traumatizing thoughts of everything he has done to me and my family, the domestic violence, and it reappears in my brain when I am trying to focus on school. Every time i'm home, he orders my dad to do this to do that, for ex, he makes my parents do his laundry, give him massages every night, get him everything like he is a paraplegic, and he seems to not even be thankful.

When he talks, he talks a lot and gets mad if you don't listen. I'm afraid to say something to him cause he will use his condition as an excuse, and I will probably get yelled at, and I have enough responsibilities of my own that I can't break down. After all these years of bitting my tounge, I am being eaten alive.

What is there to do? I have insomnia too, and everything combined just sucks.