...this might sound weird. But this is what I'm really really struggling with. I don't know if this should be in this thread or the Borderline Personality Disorder thread but I'll just leave it here.

I feel like I don't care selflessly about anyone other than my mother. I'm not close with any other members of my family, and don't really have a desire or feel comfortable enough to get close with them.

I feel like I don't care about anyone unless it's in regards to what they can do for me/how they can make me feel with words, acceptance, etc. When people say "I worry about you" to me... if they aren't my mother... I really just find myself thinking how? because I don't care much about the pain of my friends (I don't have many, but when I start developing friendships with people, it turns out this way).

I want to care, but I just really don't feel anything. I can only focus on how sad I feel and how no one seems to care about me even if they say they do, I don't believe them or feel it's enough.

So back to my original question. Is it really possibly to care about someone selflessly? Or is it just me who's not able (so far) to do that?

... I feel down and confused tonight. So many feelings I feel like I need to sort out but it's overwhelming me.

It isn't that I don't have empathy. I do. But in a detached sort of way unless it's my mom or animals.

Please help me.