Everyday i feel anger, like when im doing something and my mother calls or when someone acts agressive or offensive, i feel anger all over me, its like im being consumed by that feeling and it makes me wanna destroy something or someone, but on the outside i don't show any of it, i don't try to look calm i just do, i can't express any anger no matter how great it is.

Im kind of a cold person, i remain calm in every situation and don't express my feelings but sometimes people can notice when im sad or happier, when it comes to anger i can't express any of it and i don't try to hide it, like when im depressed i try to hide it but i don't try to hide anger, it just stays inside of me consuming me till it disapears, i can only let it out when im alone complaining about the cause, sometimes i had punched walls or throwing objects like shoes against it, there were times i also hit myself or pulled my hair.
It seems i can only let it out when im alone, and i can't express it around other people.

Do you also feel like this?