it is hard asking for help and even more difficult to admit we are having a problem. we want everybody to think we are strong. what i would do is write a letter to mom. say, hey, do you remember when you asked me if i was depressed and i said i was ok. well i didn't know how to tell you this because i didn't want you to worry. but i am really struggling. i have been for a while. and i really need help. i am having difficulty dealing with all this pressure. and then let it spill. letters are always easier.............take care.