Thank you Lulu and Curley for your insightful comments. Things are looking much better today. I had my group therapy yesterday and got much needed feedback there also. My son called me last night and invited me to his home for Thanksgiving dinner... I initially thought of saying no, but put a smile on my face (so it would come through the phone) and said "Thank you, Yes, that sounds wonderful". We then had a short conversation on politics and it ended with me telling him thank you for the nice conversation... he said I love you Mom (first). I have been receiving loving texts from my Daughter every day to keep reminding me that she loves me. I just have to remind myself to be thankful for what I do have and let go of the things I think I need. Again, Thank you.