So, I've been thinking about my ex a lot lately. I wonder how he's doing and if he's happy. I especially wonder if he thinks about me like I think about him. I guess I wonder if he's the one that got away. He tried to tell me how he feels a few years back but it was a weird situation. I had gone back to my old high school for an event they were giving. I was there with a group of my friends (my ex included) and a date. Well my ex was all over me! He wouldn't leave me alone and seemed very jealous even though he had a girlfriend at the time. I couldn't understand his behavior because he had a girlfriend and I was there with a date. Besides I had confessed my love to him and he told me that he didn't feel the same way. So, there had to be some other reason he was acting the way he was. It couldn't have been because he wanted to be with me. I did ask him later on if there was something wrong or something he wanted to talk about and he said no. So, I put it behind me. Now, that's all I can think about. The following year my high school held another event that we had both attended. We said our initial hellos and then he shouted "I'm not doing this again," and walked off. That was the last time I saw him for a year though we kept in touch. He even joked one time that I was supposed to have his kids. That was two almost three years ago now and we haven't kept in touch since then. I'm thinking about him a lot lately because my old high school will be holding the same event this year (it's an annual thing) and I'm wondering if he will attend. I want to see him so bad, but I don't want to show it. He's had to have moved on with his life by now. Maybe he's married with kids by now. If I did see him I guess I'll just give him a wave and a hello and move on. I wouldn't show it but I love him deeply and care much about him. Maybe I just need to move on with my life. I wouldn't date him even if he asked since I want to get my life together first and lose some weight. I don't know...even writing this makes me feel emotional. I just wonder if we could keep in touch again I'd really like that. Besides, I might just be romanticizing everything. Maybe we don't have the chemistry that I think we do he is my ex after all. But things have changed we dated in high school maybe there could be something there now. High school WAS ten years ago. Hmm...I don't know. I'm getting myself all worked up probably over nothing. Even if I did see him I doubt anything would happen. We would probably just be cordial and say our how do you do's and that's it. Then we would both move on. I probably wouldn't even have the courage to ask for his number. On one hand I would be happy with us both just saying hi and moving on, or if I didn't see him at all. It would be disappointing but somewhat of a relief. I don't know I just wonder. Hmm...I just wanted to get that out. Thanks for reading.