Welcome to the group. I hope you find it to be a welcoming place. Pain, especially chronic pain and depression are best friends in my personal experience so when one is bullying you the other is bound to join in on the fun. I am sorry it is so rough for you.

I have also found that focusing on the little things was helpful. I found this game called Superbetter for free online that helped me practice self care at my own pace while turning it into a fun experience (you create a character, level up etc.)

hope this helps