My whole life I thought my anger and rage and irritation was depression. I have since been told that is how my hypomania sometimes manifests.

I have been rapid cycling for past few months. Not as fast as every hour, but I never know how my day will be.

I have also had affair issues (sexting, kissing...obsessing over idea of affair). I have brought that up a bit with my husband but not in detail. Being inpatient with someone it is so easy to form and instant bond. I was only inpatient when I was in high school but I ended up hooking up with another guy teen while there. Relationships inpatient are totally different from "real life" relationships. Could the fact that you are thinking about the woman now indicate that another episode is happening?