Hello Everyone,

Just a bit about me, I am 19 years old in college doing fairly well and I feel I should be having quite a few less problems then what I have. I've been going through this for about 8ish years and its was going ok. Until I left for my first job at Cedar Point (terrible time...) basically I worked about 70 hours a week and didn't really have any coping time like I had before so I just ran with it for the 3 months until my contract ran up in August. Once I got home everything went ok for a week or two before my mood dropped like a rock. Yet for the entirety of October I have been trying to tell my family I need help. Yet, it just never came out as they were often times trying to get me to go and get a new job to pay for my expenses or get kicked out after Christmas. Earlier this week I finally got an interview scheduled today and it went ok I put on my usual mask and I feel like I will get the job but it just is putting me under way to much stress to the point my mom noticed. She asked me if I was depressed and I blew the perfect opportunity to finally get help as I froze and said I was fine which I clearly know I am not Basically now I am stuck now unable to really ask for help due to how far this has gone and I don't have the energy to continue fighting to attempt to get help as it feels like a lost battle already.

Any help on how I should go about this?
Sorry for the block of text and sob story...