Well, this birthday has been nothing but disappointment.

Mom cancelled all our shopping plans for today, gave me twenty bucks instead...(I'd spend it, except now I have no one to take me anywhere.) She claims it's because her back hurts, but I know better. I know it's because she's just hungover. Either way, it hurts. Yeah, she said we'll go shopping on Monday instead. But my birthday is today. Not tomorrow, not on Monday, today. You can't just push back someone's birthday because you "don't feel like it" or because it's not convenient to you...unless you want to make that person feel like utter ****. I know this makes me sound like a spoiled brat, but it hurts... I've cried so much today. And honestly, I doubt she'll keep her promise for Monday either. Nobody ever keeps their promises to me...they do for other people, but not for me. Am I not worthy?

Happy birthday to me huh....

Well, at least I still get a cake. Maybe I can blow out the candle and wish to disappear.