Well, I'm at the edge right now. I'm defeated. There's nothing that can help me, how can anyone help me if I can't even help myself? No medication, therapy, person can help me. I'm done, I feel like my life is over, yet I still wake up every day and realize I'm in this nightmare of reality that will never end. And things can never be simple or clear cut. Never. How can they be? I'm just a mess. I don't just have depression, I have severe social anxiety, ocd, bdd, and an addiction problem. Who can help someone who is absolutely crippled like me? It's too complicated. I've tried therapist after therapist, medication after medication, and have been hospitalized three times. I now realize that no one can help me, I can't even help myself.