Hi waterknob, the fact that you're feeling like you are doesn't need to mean that you aren't still breaking out of your depression/doesn't need to mean that you're right back where you were before
Sometimes there can be up's and down's as you're breaking through, sometimes it can be about the number of "good" days gradually increasing among the "not so good" days............and even gradually working towards there being more "good" or "not so bad" days than "bad" in a period of time. And you have had some good days so maybe you are on your way. It can sometimes be a long road, but...............!!!
Although I completely understand that work isn't helping right now. Perhaps do all you can to keep your focus on/bring your focus back to each actual task you're doing/will be doing and each professional discussion you can do something with??? Try to live them, breathe them almost to the exclusion of really noticing any of the gossip, complaining around you. And you know, you can only do what you can in fielding any trouble that comes your way any time. Sure if you can better prepare yourself for it now great, but if you can't then just hold onto..........it might happen, but it's not happening now.
And if you feel like crying......well there are going to be times when you just need to. So let it out if it might help (while remembering "but it will get better").
And something to look forward to.........if it absolutely comes to it..........Saturday's...........you are going to have another one in 7 days, and another one in 14 days, and another one in 21 days, and another one in 28 days.........racking them up now, right?? And nothing, nothing at all is going to stop those days from happening. Now maybe add on some counts of Friday evenings too, something real good somewhere deep down about knowing the week is over??
Would like you to have more to look forward to though Any "treats" you could maybe schedule in during the week for yourself??? You, without a doubt deserve something good set up!!!!

And btw, great news about managing to sort the refills!!!



Alison