So to start, I don't particularly enjoy looking too masculine*. I've thinking of either segueing into androgyny or just complete girl, but one of the biggest obstacles for me is my parents. I think I might be able to get through to my dad, maybe, perhaps, but my mom's definitely going to be a toughie.

* Side-note, I haven't shaved in a while and my facial hair supposedly looks ideal for a guy but I hate it so much and it need to go but I'm so lazy about shaving. x_x

The first time I hinted at my gender issues, she didn't react too well and we had a fight; she doesn't remember it, however. My mom also thought that my sister... actually no, she probably still thinks that my sister wants to be a boy "so she can like girls" (But my mom probably doesn't remember this.).

But I'm also thinking, even if I get through to both of them, there are still relatives that aren't really involved in the conflict, but I still interact w/ them nonetheless. I'd really hate to be my parents if they had to tell their siblings "My son's a girl or something!", and I can just feel it's going to be really awkward if I start transitioning now. I might have to hide it when they visit or something.

It's a sorta' distressed feeling. I can imagine my happiness, but there's so much bulls#it in the way of that; I just wanna' punch through everything or something. X'(

Does anyone have experiences/advice for this sorta' thing? Also, any reliable hotlines I can call would be greatly appreciated.