Its really not that complicated , your turning to alcohol to get drunk to get away from your problems. But it always leaves you feeling horrible and remembering drunk texting to LC ...and then you freak out thinking she will no longer see you, Vicious cycle I think. Wash, rinse and repeat..... Maybe you should look into local AA programs.

You and only you can make the first step to stop this harmful non helpful coping skill your using.

Stay safe