Isn't also possible that you have fear of rejection or loss of her love if you were angry or had negative feelings about your T. You do not yet feel safe with total trust with her. So you must have adoring love for T and always positive to keep therapeutic relationship intact. Eventually every good therapist will stir the pot and push your buttons so you can heal. It won't feel very good and you will feel anger and resentment. You work through those issues and the result is progress. Therapy that always makes you feel good means you are not confronting the difficult issues in life.