*Sigh* You're right. You're right. Now that I think about it we still have mutual friends. If he wanted to reach me I imagine he honestly could. If I really wanted to reach him I imagine that I honestly could. However, I hesitate to do so. Maybe because I know that everything you're saying is right. I'm trying to hold on to something that isn't there anymore and I have to do what I really don't want to do. I have to move on. Thank you for your wonderful advice and words of wisdom.