Alright, i am new here, hello all! I am writing thread here because i thought ( think ) i am suffering it. First of all i would like to say i am not in an opportunity to go to an psychiatrist. So i am 17 ,male, straight ,eveything was ok until 1 month ago when i got ill, i lost my attraction towards women, and i started wondering if i am gay, was anxious and depressed until two days later i found ''hocd'' on the google, and i it gave me big relief. Soon after i my doubting almost stopped , it was still coming but not as much as it used to did. But i was afraid more of OCD than of beeing gay/bi, i was afraid it will always be here, even when i felt better i was telling myself that i cant feel better since i got OCD. Looking for reassurance online messed me up badly, it affected my mood daily. So last night i was at playground , and i read somewhere on the internet about POCD, so i was wondering do i have POCD, not am i pedophile, just do i have POCD, and i stopped thinking about HOCD ,i was depressed ,i was like, can i actually have Ocd of whatever i think?! Am i really having OCD? Since i am more afraid of having Ocd than beeing gay or pedophile, since i know i am not any of these. Besides how can 17 year old be pedophile? Maybe i dont have problem at all?