Hi, I'm new and this is my first post. I'm not officially diagnosed, but I know without the slightest doubt that this is what's going on, and it's been ruining my life for, well, most of my life. I'm frustrated because I've tried to reach out to therapists before without getting it across well enough. Maybe it's because I usually only seek out help when I'm depressed and decide that I never really needed it anyway the rest of the time. And for the longest time I wasn't totally sure myself, and just briefly hinted at the possibility hoping that if there was an issue, they'd pick up on it. And if not, no worries. So now I'm just diagnosed with ADD and MDD. But the treatments for those still aren't enough to keep my life from being one disaster after another. And I'm so sick of it. I'm sick of being a high-acheiving, goal-driven, passionate person half of the time and a complete emotional and social mess half of the time. My whole life has been building beautiful skyscrapers and having them burn and crash down over and over. All of that and so much more that I can't even get into right now, it's tearing me to shreds. I just want someone to realize what's really going on and help me.